Not the same anymore~

     I am blogging again after God knows how many thousand years I've stop doing this..just feel like letting it out here as I don't know who to turn to..it's really common to have arguments in a relationship..I'm in a relationship and I do argue with him but most of the times we will get back together and things will resume like usual..the happy happy loving loving couple..

     Last two weeks I had a huge argument with him cause I felt left out as he has to go Langkawi for team building..two days for that and when he was back he had conference and the day after he had annual dinner..so I'll be all alone for days..not that I wanna complain but just think at my point of view..I'm always with him like 24/7 and to me he's my world and my everything! I ditch most of my friends cause I wanna spend times with him..but things changes after the night he went to karaoke with his colleagues right after his annual dinner..what's more interesting was he met 2 new close friends and it seems to me that they are so important to him..not to mention one of them is a girl..I know I might be thinking too much but sometimes a girl's six sense can be right..I can tell that he does have a little special feelings for her..he seems defensive over her without him realizing..

     I am guessing they could have something if she doesn't have a boyfriend and she's not coming from other state..of course if he's also single..he might not realize this but whenever I said something bout them he starts getting all so defensive and the tone! He never spoke to me like that until he met them..he's indeed a very responsible guy and I know he doesn't likes to be call the bad guy..so even if we are not in a very good condition now or he might or might not have feelings for this other girl he'll never call this relationship off..but it's really no point keeping it if we are both not happy..and I don't know if he feels good treating me so cold..cause my feelings are gradually going off..we will eventually be apart even if we never call it off..I opened up to him (he always asked me to) but he seems to have something in his mind that he didn't wanna let me know..it takes two to tango right??..
 
     He's just so different now..the way he talks to me, the way he treats me just different..maybe we are just not meant to be..I don't wanna be in denial..wasting both our times when I'm sure he will find someone who can makes him happy cause he always wanted to be happy..but happiness come within ourselves and depending on how u handle your life..if he doesn't feel happy with me he should just call it off..cause I can see that he's really not happy the time when we were together after the arguments..I really don't want my significant one to treat me this way..it's just not right..I don't feel the love from him anymore..let's just wait for the time to come..anyways, life goes on..guess I'll be moving on with my second plan perhaps? =)