A letter to him..

Dear you,

     Just want to let you know that I have so much faith and hope in our relationship..you've made me believe in love once again but not until what you've done to me..I have completely lost trust and faith in you but hoping that you can try to regain it again but you are just too impatient..one thing that I really don't understand, what's with you saying that I am using you? What is it that you have for me to use? If I were to use you I will not leave you until I've spend all your money..if I want to, I will not even be with you for these 2 years but to find some rich men..

     I will not say that I've wasted these 2 years with you because what I felt was truly love..but it was really sad for me to know that what u felt was just a waste of time and money..at least I know to you I'm just a waste of time and money..not sure if you're aware that you've been really harsh towards me during our arguments..you can be disrespectful to me but not to my family especially my late mom..I respect your family and I will not mention them in our arguments..I'm just so disappointed with what you've said about my late mom..just so you know that she does likes you and happy that I was with you but what you've said about her was just too much..

     I know you don't realize how much of "me" in our arguments..all you think of is just yourself..I was speeding home every time I'm back from flight just to see you..you were all I thought of during my entire flight..so longing to see you and hug you..though we argue, I still hope to see you yesterday night..hoping that you'll try to talk things out nicely with me, instead you started to be really harsh towards me..you know me but you don't know me well..things could have been different if you could have started off talking to me nicely..I was waiting at my living room hoping that things will turn out fine..I know you've been working really hard but I too was flying for almost 12hours..you really don't have to over react for what you called lame joke..

     Even though I know you'll never wish me the best and you might think that I'll never find any guys who are better than you, I'll still sincerely pray that you'll one day find a girl who you'll love with all your heart and love her as much as u love yourself..I've learned what's love is really all about..if you are not ready to give in and love the other half just as much as loving yourself then don't fall in love..well I might not find any better guy than you but at least I've learned to love myself more..if you were to ask me what I really want past 2 months, let me tell you is to spend the rest of my life with you but if u were to ask me again now ,I just wanna be alone and best is to not keep in touch with you..our memories are more than enough for me..love is indeed an illusion..

                 
                  EVERY WORD THAT WAS SAID CAN NEVER BE TAKEN BACK~