i was brought into this world with no reason.....

After living in this world for 20 years, i start to realize that life is meaningless. We do the same old routine everyday and not knowing what's the purpose of doing it. So what's the real purpose of us living in this world? I used to agree with the sentence "yesterday was a history, today is a gift and tomorrow is a mystery" but for now i think it's a BULLSHIT!. There is no gift or mystery, it's all bullshit, crap, a lie and it's a stupid term to so-called make the idiots feel better. I've seen the ugly side of the world and it's fill with hideous lie and people.

I've brought up in a disastrous family. Living with sadness and hatred that make me never understand the meaning of love. Why can't i have a loving and happy family? Am i not deserve to get what everybody is having? I believe that 2 people get together because of the word love but i don't understand why idiots want to build their own home that they don't even love, not committed and not willing to sacrifice for it. I know that everyone have their own family problems but how often does a quarel happen? Well, mine happen everyday, everyday without FAIL!. I am so sick and tired of them repeating the same thing and telling how much they hate each other for 20 years. It's not easy to live with a problematic mother and a home that's like hell to me. I've tried to be very positive and think of every possible way to be happy, unfortunately i can't.

My life is fucked up and i'll try very hard to screw up with the rest of my life like what my parents wish to do on me and my siblings from the day we were born. And yes, we'll be one BIG FUCKED UP FAMILY!, "how sweet". Definitely will live SUCKINGLY EVER AFTER!.

Now you see how ugly can the world be. So what if you're the prettiest girl in the universe, the richest person in the whole wide world and being the smartest ass in the entire world, you'll still die like any other people and yes you'll definitely get to keep all this with yourselves in the coffin where you'll be burried together with worms and maggots. We all live and die, it's just the matter of time. Vanity doesn't last for goodness sack, you'll grow old and become the ugliest granny ever!. I feel pity for those girls who love to compare and boasting around with what they don't have. C'mon, it's time for us to learn how to keep things to ourselves. Yes, the world know you are beautiful on the outside, you don't have to show that bitchie look on your face. Outer beauty may be the only thing you have but that's alright because i always know that we're living in a hideous and ugly world just like the inner you!.

I know i don't have the right to end my life but did anyone ask me if i even want to be here, be here with a disaster family, here in this stupid world? Nobody ask me for my permission before bringing me here, i never said that i want to be here because i would never want to start my fucked up life in this fucked up world. But yet i was brought into this universe and stuck in this ugly and hideous world. There will never be a happiest day in my life. So what's life all about?

Pavilion, the best shopping place ever!! =D

Wooohooo...went shopping again with my babes last 2weeks!!.. =D ...hah..this time no more food poisoning...went lunch at gasoline in sg. wang...omg, didn't expect their food to be so terrible and the environment is so creepy there (got various of feet smell =.=" can't eat in peace!!haha..anusha thanks for bringing ur perfume (DIOR) along, it actually helps to reduce the feet smell a little..lolzz)...anyway, saw a really cute and sweet dress but since my friends said it's not worth the price so i end up not buying it (really miss it!!..gosh..it's such a gorgeous dress)...after bummin around in sg. wang, we walked to pavilion (never get bored with pavilion =)..always have stuff to shop there)...yes indeed, i bought a really cute jacket from pull & bear!! =D ...heh..after shopping around and our feet are getting tired, we finally stop for dinner in ICHIBAN BOSHI (deliciously delicious..yum yum!!) before getting home..will be back to pavilion again soon!!.. =)



dun swt la von von..u r very nice to pose with!! ngek ngek



yes von, u know that we love u right?!..



dora u r suppose to try ur bra and get our ass off after that right?!..hah..we end up camwhoring in the fitting room..lolz



err..never too old to act cute right?!!..well. i can't deny that we r actually CUTE!! =p



oh, jane u r such a ganas bunny..



aawww...after leaving high school for so many years, we've finally back close again!! =D



while anusha is busy quarelling with her bf over the phone, we're busy camwhoring with her camera..hehe..



talk no evil, see no evil, hear no evil....



LOVE U GALS REALLY MUCH!!..muaxie muax ><

Outing with my babes!!

Last Saturday went outing with my girlfriends in pavilion..i just got my salary and planned to SHOP TILL I DROP =D (have not been doing that for such a long long time) woohooo!!..supposedly, after lunch we'll shop around for our stuff..unfortunately, after having lunch in the "CHAR CHAN TENG" i got food poisoning =/ (thanks to the cheese baked rice..will never ever have that AGAIN!!)...i have never visit toilet in shopping malls that often...every 30 minutes i'll feel like vomiting...i feel so bad for my darlings..they'll need to teman me to the toilet for every half an hour (sigh)...
We meet up with Dora at around 6 something then after that we went back to Jane's house (she drove my car @.@..she was so cute and funny..lolx)...so sad that i can't join them for their sushi party..i only can drink soup =( ..being sick is no fun at all but it was really nice to have someone to take care of you!!..they heat up the soup for me, get me blanky and pillows (so nice of them) =)...hmm..after feeling a bit better i drove home lor...reach home around 10 something..still not feeling any better..continue to vomit (have not been feeling that sick for so many years)...then my bubu came SAYANG <3 me heh =D ..feel so much better lor...will be back to SHOP TILL I DROP this week!!...not gonna eat at the "CHAR CHAN TENG" anymore and definitely not gonna have CHEESE BAKED RICE ANYMORE!! >< ..